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gatekeeper
(its surprising that i posted this... supposedly the longest post this year. haha. yo thank you thank you. u better know that you're reading the rocker's blog entry)

HELLOOOO!
I AM BACK FROM HONG KONG YO!
it's saddenning yet happyenning THAT i have to leave earlier because of Queenie and some of her matters(can't be revealled because of her warning who threatened to hack into my blogger account if I refused to listen to her)... Anyway, at the thought of this secret she has, I've regretted quite a bit of not opting for a SAP school but it's no use feeling sorry for myself so let me make it possible for me to enter the ever SAP-py JC - HCJC :D lalala. ok don't dream - i will work and xing dong do the action de.

Anyway, during my hk trip, I went back to my mom's place of birth - guizhou in china. This place is a place filled with passionate people who constantly help anyone in need. I mean these people are really lovely, they just help you without hesitation. it's filled with ren qin wei, the way everyone should be which isn't the fact in developed countries. Not say that guizhou is not develop, it's very developed too. everywhere you see people using iphones. hmph. that reminds me of my lousy phone that big silver phone you always see me using. Lousy as in the button 3 and 9 are undetectable. gah.. now i have to use my mom's LG phone which is erm not say very old or very new ok at least i can sms and call pple. :D

okkk guizhou food is awesomely spicy and we went to huang guo shu which spledid waterfall views are seen by my bare eyes. They say these views are even more spectacular when visited during summer - thinking of a trip for next year june hols alr! haha. we met a family which my grandma is very qin (close) to, closer than real blood family and they were uber great ! constantly assisting us. however, there's this one family who has 3 daughters just like mine that ordered 20+dishes for us! OMG. I was like mouth hanging in the air while eyes popping out, staring at the table full of big dishes. The number was so massive that dishes had to be put on top of each other as in stacked on a second level. :O. And guess what? they gave us really huge amount of ang bao money. better not reveal the number or else i would expect a robbery. We climbed up a mountain too, in guizhou but didn't climb all the way because of construction of stairs... -.- anyone guizhou is a state, hopefully you know (i doubt so) - i went to guiyang and du yun in this particular state in china. after more than 1 week of stay there, with ever so wonderful hotels - 4stars hotels (having breakfast in there everyday...-_-):D, we were back in hong kong. ok not really, we were back to shen zhen then bus to hong kong. that's how we arrived to shenzhen airport when we went guizhou too.

ohh by the way, the temperature in guizhou has been hovering around 0-5degree celcius during our stay. but snow didn't give us a chance :(

when we went back to hong kong, the temperature risen! hongkong's temperature 22 degree celcius. darn hot ... but still not as hot as you-know-where SG~

gahgahgah. we had dinner at the other grandmother's place and yup the grandmother who has super a lot of grandchildren and i played basketball with one of them whos 10yrs old and like sticking around me. haha. she's a volleyball player.. you would be like 0.0 when you see her 'voluptuous' figure. ok not insulting her. but i have hope in her that she will ultimately slim down one day. i shot 8 shoots haha! and Queenie shot 6! lol. i rock~haha.

because those da ge ge, big boys are coming, we went back and had dinner... later we had ice cream feast and fattened ourselves :( - apparently not what they think but what Queenie and I think!!! hmph. we exchanged gifts... and one of my cousins - the biggest sis bought gifts each specialised for us but we insisted to draw lots and ended up with undesirable gifts ... later we exchanged back to the 'desirable' gifts. hah. wasted paper for drawing lots - LOL. and!! i won the first prize- ice cream tickets. man. fattening. anw, we came back early and didn't get a chance to buy any super ice cream - YAY FOR ME :D

erm yup then on christmas it's settled that only Queenie and my dad get to go back to sg. it's so sudden that my dad suddenly changed his mind and protested that nora and i could go back together too. i was exasperated!! i mean like why didn't he tell us earlier, why didn't he make that decision earlier? ARGH. but we still rushed and rushed. we went to the lift the grandma's house, thinking the luggage stuff are all sufficient when suddenly my aunt (yi yi - mom's sis) shouted that i forgot to bring my medicine - (my nose medicine)... i galvanized my steps and took the bag... later when we went down... i realized i forgot to bring my piano theory bk!! I went up again and took those books AND undergarments AND queenie and nora's waterbottles... BUT STILL... when we were on the aeroplane, we forgot TO bring NORA'S MILK !!! YUP SO WE DAI ZHE DA BAO XIAO BAO - a lot of bags stuffed with things in the disorder manner. -mei ban fa!! it's really rush-y. i was mental-ised while packing all these stuff. erm anw, there're no seats that's like four at a row, so we were separated! nora and dad of course sat together, found a precious two-seats at the side place while queenie and i were separated but still i exchanged place with an ang mo after asking him and we stick together. luckily i was brave enough to ask that tall man, if not, i would have sat for 1 hour delay... oh did you know that the plane delayed for 1hour+ because of the stupid fog??? air pollution :(!!! okk anw... the funny thing is when we went to hong kong on the plane from singapore to hong kong, i watched harry potter until some place (harry potter and the half blood prine) and!! the funny thing is that on the plane to singapore from hong kong (old plane - cannot fast forward) i slept at that particular precious part which i din't watch. I woke up only after the movie ended. I really can't help it but sleeeeep you know. i was damn tired. donno why.

fortunately i came back with the three of them - dad queenie and nora. if not i would have travelled with six-year-old nora perhaps quite helplessly. but you'll never know how professional i would be after 6 years of constant travelling. muahahha. ok. stopped.

quite sad that we spent (rather than celebrated) christmas at home unpacking the ever dishevelled luggages. but still happy to be here to do my chinese story bk hw and theory! erm. yeah.

thanks pearlyn <3 love uuuuuuu :D



beachoice
oh my gosh these people are just so crazy about fattening food.

really appreciate you.

Hey hey you you, thanks for reading this very post, I really appreciate your openness and thank you thank you thank you.!

I am fianlly starting to learn to appreciate the little things around me, even the littlest which hopefully isn't too late to start.

I seriously don't know what to blog about... let me just conclude my 2009, my suckiest year thank you. Yes, 2009 sucks to the core for ME. Reason being for all the cryings, mournings, fake smilings, unnatural friendliness, extreme inactiveness and most importantly super selfishness. I blame a lot of these to my surroundings yes, I begin to hate a lot of things. Getting a good partner (as in the person sitting beside you) is very significant for she can change your entire personality. Who I used to be is changing, and now, I am trying to push it back to who I am supposed to be. The people around you influence you A LOT. Nearing to someone who's always complaining, it's just making yourself like her, always blaming and not 检讨ing. The type of school you get into also affects you. Leaving my dear old Chinese cultureful school makes me uneasy in terms of communication, declining of my own Chinese standard. Leaving your dear old friends change you. In fact, most of these cases change you to the negative side rather than the positive side. You might think that you are doing all good for yourself but in fact you are not. It's the kind of people who will truly motivate you who will make you shine. Now, I am losing these lovely people. And I hate to lose them. These wonderful darlings.

Yet, of all these around me which I had blamed on into turning my life upside down, I myself can control on my own if I had not been so dependent on those factors. ME. I can search for those whom I can be with. I can accept the school I am in and strive on my own. Can't I? All these problems were created because of ME myself simply refusing to get a sense of life.

I hope my soul will return. I hope I won't remain as sucky as I had been this year. I hope someone, you can understand and help me. I wish I won't say that I wished that I never existed. I hope... I hope... I hope... I can be ME again.

p.s. sisters can't be friends.